Hey im like really scared?

ok so my mom she got sick 2 day um she had cereal and orange juice and ummm she take alot of pills for her body ill explain 2 u that i don't live with my real mom im a foster child and i don't need no neg comments thanks she said she felt sick to her stomach so we were on r way to pay some bills and the got in the car i heard aloud rumble from her stomach she got out the care walked all away around to the side of the house threw up i didn't know it till i heard silence and it sounded like running water it scared me so bad i wanted to cry but i didn't i held it in its just scary because she not young and everytime this happens 2 her i cry it happed like 4 to 5 times in like 1 year i scares me i really do u just don't no i cry because i think i mite lose her and im afraid if i lose her im not gonna be able to take care of my self my baby and my uncle 2 and yes i am Young and have a baby jk budon'te watching it 4 the mom till she get like 19 and she 15 rite now and i do all the work but u dont need to worry about that its scares it makes me think like y god why cant that happen to me i dont no if im crazy or just thinking negative can some people tell me how 2 keeps my self from crying wen shes healthy everything seems fine when she sick i get scared and have 2 fite my selfnot to cry idk wat 2 do just let it out orrr wat please give me some advice and please no bad comments she alrighte now she had some cold water and just sat outside and laughed and tlk and its like shee aint the person that wus throwing up but its like weird but i still need advice